It began as a gentle whisper asking me: why am I here?

Since high school, I believed in One Higher Power. Some people might call It God, Universe, Source, and the list goes on. Regardless of the terminology, it intrigued me. Why would God place me here on Earth? What calling was I supposed to serve? These questions started out of curiosity and ultimately blossomed into a burning desire to discover my calling for myself. The more that I tried to seek it out in the world outside of me, the more I wanted to know my purpose in the conventional world of Business. My original premise was that if I did a great job at my full-time accounting position, then I would be fulfilled. However, I did not realize that I kept “serving” and giving to this job yet it was draining away my life energy.

In hindsight, the Pandemic really woke me up to the fact that if a job, person, or circumstance keeps on taking life energy out of you and not giving energy back in return, then there’s something awfully wrong and out of balance. At the time, I wasn’t fully aware of this, but I still made the tough choice to quit this full-time accounting job in October 2020 and take on a less stressful part-time accounting position. Although I didn’t earn as much money, my family still supported my decision to slow down and take care of my sanity. I understand that not everyone has a supportive family or friends, so I am truly grateful for the support that my family provided me in the form of a shelter. Without their support, my decision would have been either extremely hard to execute or not even considered.

Upon changing my job, the slow-down period really provided me space to reflect and recover my life energy. I felt more “purpose” at work. However, I still felt like something was missing. Accounting was not my calling. It’s like that song by Idina Menzel “Into the Unknown”. I felt a call into the unknown yet there were trepidation, fear, and worries. What could I possibly be doing if not accounting? If I left accounting, I would have wasted my time, effort, and money to get a combined Bachelor's and Master’s degree in Accounting. I would have wasted around 11 years of schooling and working experience. My mind and logic could not understand my heart’s desire for a more beautiful and fulfilling life. But then, by happenstance, I came across this quote from Albert Einstein:

"The Intuitive mind is a sacred gift
and the Rational mind is a faithful servant.
We have created a society that honors
the servant and has forgotten the gift."

This quote blew my mind away and shocked my understanding of the world. What did Einstein mean by the "sacred gift"? Do I have a sacred gift that God gave me? This started my call into the Unknown and the beginning of a more integrated and adventure-filled spiritual journey.

I want to end this post by saying that the call into the unknown is like Joseph Campbell's call to action at the beginning of the hero's journey. I sincerely believe that it's never too late. But it does require a heavy dose of courage and inner strength at each given moment. Because as Eleanor Roosevelt said:

"The Future Belongs to Those who Believe in the Beauty of Their Dreams."